I was born with a spinal condition where one bone is out of place. Over the years it has hurt off and on in my lower back when the bone touches nerves. Recently the padding on each side of the vertebrae has slipped out, causing severe and acute pain with every movement I take. So now, my empathy for others has grown considerably as I deal with this. In the past few days, my docs have been calling it lots of things and experimenting with different medicines. Still here, smiling, but stuck in bed. I need help to move! This is messing with my head because I am the athletic type who does hot yoga for an hour and a half a day, lifts weights, and hikes regularly! Plus I coach others physically, mentally, and nutritionally for wellness and personal development. I eat anti-inflammatory foods, stay away from all grains and sugars, and get only nutrient dense, clean proteins and fats. How could this happen to me? Why, God? Why Universe? I feel like a failure, I wonder when I will feel some relief, and help others again. Yet, I am certain there are lessons in compassion and empathy here. I'm seeking them with vigor as I attempt to heal.
So how am I coping? I write down 3 positive affirmations that I want to see appear in my life as if they are already happening. I write these down daily and read them aloud throughout the day. I meditate for a few minutes here and there. I ask for help and share my story. I don't want to follow those who have hurt themselves on purpose. I want to rise up and heal myself and aid others in their paths. I light candles, and essential oils diffuse throughout my home. I pray and know that I am not alone. Neither are you.
I have to take my own research, advice, and writing that I so passionately share with you all in my books as medicine for myself. Otherwise I would be a fraud. It does not mean that I have not cried like a baby these past few days, but I have not kept my pain and suffering inside, like a dark secret.
Please tell me if you are in pain so I can add you to my prayer list. Please tell me how you manage the physical and mental stresses associated with chronic physical pain. Please sign up on my contact form so I may reach you with my free content and workshops. The links to my YouTube videos are on the top left side of every page.
Blessings,
KJ Landis